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The Blue Notebooks

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June 11, 2007
The Blue Notebooks by =arctoa is a lyrical sequence of poems with accompanying portrait.
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04:10 - A Reminder

Three days:
tri-rises of the Sun beyond the
high-rises of my dreams
where you & I ran, ran, and ran:
from drug-head dental captivity
to escape-acts in manual cars
("Change the gears!" "What?")
and chasing the stars, to police stations
in old tenemants and crowded
riotous acts in a once-quiet coastal town
it all went down
with you & I gripping tight
against the ever-maddening night.

Blink

Skin soaks and sheets stick;
breath comes shallow, fast,
and strains of former thought
invade without rhyme nor reason.
Eyes twitch a bloodshot reminder
and search for life in darkness;
be it your silent form, or some
malignant lurking terror.

Blink

Realisation kicks:
it's three o'cl9ock in the morning
and mine are the only vital signs
in this white-wall cell(ular existence).



09:20 - Old thoughts airse

When I was a child I was told to
Respect
to be respected.
And yet, and yet, and yet...
as soon as I coucld break the maternal clutch
I ruined body and mind in the pursuit
of any empty epiphany.

I was brought back
to Earch in a hospital bed.
I'm humble and frail, and those days
are long-gone; yet my atonement
stretches to the still-dark
and distant horizons.

Hope is my flag; a rag
that I keep half-mast
from the ravaging winds
of this god-damned reality.

The clocks tick onward.



13:15 - Re-state my assumptions

Death stalks the decks
of this stricken ship.


You've been missing for three days;
and cut ties ache like the hole in this
chest. 'Panic Attacks!' --
but with less of the science-fiction
golden-age glitz and more like the
wrenching fear of a lifetime as zero
zero, one, one. Zero zero zero-one.

Death whispers a dream
then tears it up before me.




20:21 - Losing Control

Connection lost;
another day of
contact over and out
(of control).
Burn the servers,
sever the spine --

Jangling nerves misfire
and send jolting panic
signales to over-burned
synapses --

It's just another spilt cup
that stains without and within.
The gears are burnt-out, and
I'm stuck in neutral.



01:19 - ShutDOWN

#these eyes are sightless
#these eyes are sightless
#tsehe esye aer silghstse-

>> runtime_ERROR: fatal execution
>> run "reboot"
>> commence reboot: Y/N_
>> Y_
>> loading "backup.exe" <C:toolshope.dll> ... failed!
>> runtime_ERROR: corrupt data
>> retry: Y/N_
>> Y_
>> loading "backup.exe" <C:toolshope.dll> ... failed!
>> runtime_ERROR: corrupt data
>> retry: Y/N_
>> N_
>> run "shutdown"
>> commence shutdown: Y/N
>> Y_
Updated 26/08/2010 @ 15:56

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